I want to take a quick break from our reading through John to make a confession.
I am reading through Cast of Characters by Max Lucado. It is a good book and I recommend it if you are looking for something that you can pick up and put down. There are 20 something chapters but each one is on a different individual from the Bible.
Anyway, the last chapter I read was Job and to be honest I was not expecting what I read. I have read the book of Job and have often skipped over most of the dialog. I won’t lie to you, I find the dialog so difficult to read that I know I am missing most if what is being said. Usually what I do is read the first few chapters and the last few. I think one time I read the whole thing but I do not remember when.
I am going to just quote what I read.
“For six chapters Job gives his opinions on God, This time the chapters headings read “and Job continued,” “and Job continued,” “and Job continued.” He defines God, explains God, and reviews God. One gets the impression that Job knows more about God than God does…… God answers and He floods the sky with quieres, and Job cannot help but get the point: Only God defines God….”
God asks Job questions about how the stars were hung, where the Earths cornerstone is, how wide it is. All these questions were designed to get Job to understand he does not know as much as he thinks.
What am I confessing you might be asking by now? Do I feel I try to defend God, try to explain the unexplainable…. Well the simple answer is NO, that is not at all what I am confessing but now I know how you really feel. Goodness you think you know someone….
No, what I realized is I am worried about the future. I thought what I was doing was planning and trying to figure out how to pay off debt so my family can go into Missions or Bible College and to an extent that is what I was doing but to a much larger extent what I was doing was fretting and worrying about how to do it. I have been trying to come up with the way to make my dreams come to pass but in all reality I cannot make it happen. I cannot come up with ways or convince God to do something my way. He is God and He has His plans.
Two things, first from John chapter 2 (looks like I am sharing from John).
His mother said to the servants, “Whatever He says to you, do it.”
Simply put if God’s plans and my dreams are one in the same He will tell me what to do. I may not see how it will make the end goal come to pass but He will give me direction. All I have to do is what I know He is telling me to do at this moment. That is where faith comes in. When you do not know what the step after this one is you have to have faith that the God who does know will tell you.
Second is from the book of Jeremiah.
Call to Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know
Understand you and I have ideas all of the time. We may not share them with others but we have ideas of how something should or could be done, but our ideas are pretty lame compared to God’s ideas. His plans are so much bigger and better that it makes us look well human. If we call out to God and just ask, don’t tell, or deal, or plead, or beg, or whine (God does not like whining), the He will tell us things we do not know. Shouldn’t I believe that can also be about how to, or when to, or what to?
SO my confession is that I am worried and letting it get in the way of doing, and honestly sometimes I am a whiner.
On a side note I want to thank someone named Michelle who wrote about Matthew chapter 6 that seemed to plant that seed in my head.
Just a thought,