Search me, God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. Psalm 139:23-24.
Man what a prayer! Praying that God would search and test your heart. You know I honestly don’t think you can pray that unless you trust God. I don’t see anyway you can pray for God to test you unless you trust Him to be gentle with you. If you are scared of God you can’t ask Him to search and test you. Not because of what He might find but how He might react. If you are scared of God then you are afraid of how He will respond. However when you love and trust Him, you know even if He finds junk He is going to be gentle with you. When my daughter asks me if her room is clean she is saying “Daddy I trust you to be honest with me and not freak out because I missed something.” If (and when) I find something as an earthly father I am more than likely going to pick it up and take care of it for her. How much more does God help us.
I want that honest prayer of a child “Daddy search my room (heart)” “Daddy help me clean my room (heart) so we can go out and play (way of everlasting).”